Just A Few Thoughts

This is not what I would consider a high-quality blog entry, as I'm quite tired from an unusual outing but feel compelled to enter a few words before retiring.

"Why compelled," you ask?

Well, for one thing, because it seems that since the universe is so clearly sending me loud distress signals, I'd best use every avenue and opportunity to "work through" - or toward - whatever it is that I'm learning and/or arriving at. Still unsure of the specifics of what the hell is even going on, frankly, so excuse the practically nonsensical nature of that sentence. That, these days, is my life. Nonsensical. Or is it?

But I have digressed....

Writing - I'm quite certain - is clarifying. If only I knew what topics to address in my writing, I might actually get somewhere. In the meantime, I have "opened myself" to new experiences. Yes, I tried a new experience last night. That went well. I tried a new experience tonight. Didn't like that one so much. But more on those later... when I'm really blogging. Not like right now, when I am (I've noticed) pretty much just rambling. Again, this - these days - is my life. A transitionary phase. That's one of the things I'm telling myself.

What? What was that?

Sorry - thought I heard the higher powers finally explaining the meaning of my current state. Alas, I was mistaken. It was a rabbit munching on lettuce. Close, close. If I thought long enough - and hard enough - I might find quite a lot of meaning in that munching.

Still, I'll put this out there... for whoever is paying attention: I'm ready. Yes -like you've INSISTED, I'm shedding myself of negative energies right and left, and I'm WIDE open for anything positive that you want to send my way. Yup, anytime you want to direct those POSITIVE things toward me, I'll be ready. Opened my mind right up in anticipation, I have. Just thought I'd make that clear. NO HARBORING of those negatives here. Moving them RIGHT out of my life. Just waiting...right over here...anytime now...

Also, I was struck by the melodramatic nature of a couple of my recent posts and couldn't let them be the most recent things posted, for the shame of it. Instead, I've replaced it with what appear to be the ramblings of a madwoman. Great. Way to go, K. Put everyone's mind at ease with your clearly improved mental state. Excellent.

Anyhoo... the lesson in this is probably a fairly easy one to grasp. Don't write when you're tired, and have been subjecting yourself to "new experiences" like mad, and have received traumatic life blow after traumatic life blow within an absurdly short period of time, and have exhausted your emotional reserves, and have subjected yourself to what was deceptively labeled as a "Strength Training class" and was actually a front for AN HOUR of cruel and unusual torture. That last part is particularly important. I'm pretty certain that a screw slipped during the twentieth push-up on the Bosu. I can't discuss it further, or I'll get so riled up that I won't be able to sleep. All I WILL say is this: Whatever EVIL mind invented that device should be FORCED to use it EVERY day in EVERY activity that they undertake for the rest of their life. That - my friends - would be true justice.